Maybe it’s just because I’m not that great at being a leader, but in my opinion, leadership is tough. It doesn’t come naturally for me. I have to work at it. It takes planning, and organization, and patience, and a whole lot of thought. And even when I do all of these things, I still make a lot of mistakes.
It’s a miracle that anyone is still following me at all.
But I have to remind myself that it’s not about me. Because as soon as I think anyone is following me because of how great of a leader I am, I’m leading people in the wrong direction.
God appointed me as a pastor not so that I can gain a following for myself, but so that I would point to Him as the one we should all follow. God alone is good, and perfect, and gracious, and HE is the one worthy of all our attention and devotion. It’s not my job to come up with creative ideas or programs that will bring people to the church; it’s my job to point people to Scripture, and encourage them to follow the Lord Jesus Christ.
It certainly takes some leadership abilities to do that. And I’m definitely going to be held accountable to God for the flock that He’s entrusted me with. But I also trust in the One who will be working in me and through me and through the church so that He will be glorified in all of us.